Monday, September 6, 2010


This whole break up crap just reminds me of a line from a Katy Perry song. It's called "Thinking of You," and Katy sings, "You said move on, where do I go?"


It's even more depressing since Katy's hot and totally got someone else while I'm just alone. Bitch.

I'm fine most of the time in the most literal sense of the word I have ever expressed. I'm not happy or sad or upset or angry or anything until someone asks or I'm left alone without anything to do (hence this post. I'm not fine right now.) My feelings about Anthony are pretty fluid right now too. I alternate between desperately wanting him back, being fine because I want him to be happy and I'd do anything to make that happen, and taking his "you deserve better" racket as a personal challenge. I just don't know right now.

As far as where I'm going though, I do have a plan. I hate that I became one of those girls who's only about her significant other so fixing that is first on my to do list. I'm in weaving and screenprinting this semester and I already had to spend a Saturday finishing up projects. I'm joining Fibers Club and Roots and Shoots and rushing a fraternity. I'm still applying for the Girl Scouts job, I'm attending a new church, and I want to find a yoga or dance class. It's all about distractions right now. Besides, Cosmo says guys like girls with different interests.

So wish me luck because 90% of the time I just want to lay in bed and stop feeling things, and that is no way to live life.


  1. wishing you the absolute best ! i know you'll feel better soon enough, especially with all those distractions :)

    but good luck. if you don't have one already, you should start a journal. it's a really relaxing and therapeutic thing to do, plus nobody gets to read it except you !

  2. I agree with *kris. A journal definitely is a great personal release. I'm also making the transition from "in a relationship" to "single" (damn facebook statuses, lol). I'm currently researching cooking, dancing, and self defense/fighting classes.


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